Sick

I've been sick all week. I went to bed with a soar throat on Saturday and woke up with an even worse one Sunday morning. I went to Church on Sunday. I can't remember if I mentioned that in my blog before. I've been so worried about Brian and money and moving and everything else as of late I felt like maybe I needed to find a little faith. I'm not much for Church normally. I do love churches though. I like the way they look. I love their stained glass windows and pews. There is just something calming about the whole thing.

Anyway I seemed to get sicker and sicker as the week went on. Yesterday I woke up and I just couldn't get out of bed my legs felt so weak. I was really trying to not call in this week but I just couldn't make it. I went back to sleep for as long as I possibly could. Finally around 2pm it was just too hot in my room to sleep anymore. Our AC is busted and by 3pm the house is an oven.I crawled out to the living room where it was still dark enough to have kept some of the heat out and planted myself on the couch for the rest of the afternoon to watch Spirited Away.

Brian had suggested I watch it that morning when I told him I was staying home. I think he made a good call. That movie always makes me feel all warm and fuzzy inside. I woke up feeling much better today and managed to make it into work.

Logically I've been worrying less and less about Brian. I'm fairly convinced that whatever is going on with him is going to go away with a little rest, some herbal remedies (aka a good detox) and some special attention to diet and just all around taking better care of himself. I think when I get to Oregon we need to have a serious life adjustment when it comes to how we eat and take care of our bodies. No more garbage!

What I've taken away from my experience being so far away from and concerned for my husband is that money and material possessions have lost so much of their value to me and my family and loved ones are really all that matters. I can't even tell you how broke I am right now and although that is a little stressful it seems to just fall on the sidelines now. I know we'll figure it out somehow and really who cares so long as the ones I love are ok who cares.